Friday, October 19, 2012

Cunning Canyon


with a whir and a bounce
I drop into the canyon;
with coyote cunning
Sinawava waits for me.

a warm morning sun
comforts the adrenalin
gnawing inside my veins 

sounds of birds and distant voices
echo against twisted labyrinth walls,
clear waters tiptoe
with sparkling twinkles
through shallow streams below;
all the while
sweet mountain air absorbs my being

without warning
an impetuous sky wells up,
coal-colored clouds
swirl and whirl
barking with abrupt crescendo,
as the simple patter of droplets
turn to steamy showers,
walls of rock begin to weep 
with dead branches and
loose rock,
grumbling as they jettison down.

with sharpened senses,
seeking higher ground,
hands grope for
holds in a changing wall
as feet  stumble like
an awkward teenager,
mind trying to catch up to body.

a bluster of upstream water
collides into a now roiling stream
rushing with a bellow
unforgiving,
leaving sloppy sludge 
in its wake.

the fleeting chaos
passes
scurrying squirrels,
and twittering birds
reappear, 
luring me back . . .

The Temple of Sinawava
awaits.



anke hodenpijl
October 19, 2012

Thursday, October 18, 2012

Irregular Time




I stand in the middle of the minute
listening to the vacant silence
breathing in bits of time
savoring, indulging, snuggling
the ticks and the tocks

my heart beats blobby beats
against the steady cadence
of the clock on the wall

tick
tock
thump
thump
flutter 



anke hodenpijl
October 18, 2012

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

La Paz






Like the viagara sold at the local farmacia
you promise to arouse and gratify.

La Paz, ciudad de mucho caliente
You stir my internal senses with 
passionate purples
magical magentas

I recline in your soft salty breeze
drinking in the peace and abundance 
foreshadowed en su nombre

your tumble-down buildings
hold me in bygone times

massaging me with
 unkempt fingers
seducing me
persuading 
me to 
question
                                                                          Where? 
When?
                                                                                             








Tuesday, October 16, 2012

A Spritz or a Splash



Leaning into the current
I plan my attack
River left?
River right?
Portage?
Stay?
Play?
Run?
Between ripple and pothole
Between glassy rest and first breath of white

Is my choice really between life or death?
Or
Is my choice between wet living or dry dying?



Splashing purifies me





anke hodenpijl
October 16, 2012

Monday, October 15, 2012

Pappje




Cuddling boyhood memories
extracting every smell, every touch
from the craving in his belly . . .

Celebes

soft spongy soil under bare feet
thick jungle air
sweet sticky rice 
eaten with fingers
on banana leaf plates

his heart

                                                                   washed up on the wrong shore

                                  

                                                           misplaced




his tears 


                                        fall                  foreign






anke hodenpijl
October 15, 2012

Slobber Laughter


What makes me laugh?
My basset hound
long ears dancing
bouncing towards me
jowls dripping 
slobber taking flight
we are so happy to see each other.
Our love really is unconditional
slobber and all

What makes me laugh?
My preschool grand-daughters wanting a trip to the park
In our camper van
"Can we use the porta-potty" they giggle
So much fun to pee and poop in the car!

What makes me laugh?
my son at three,
cowboy hat on
singing Willie Nelson
“Mamas don’t let your sons grow up to be cowboys”
He’s a computer geek today
I should have seen it coming

What makes me laugh?
My daughter, when she was four,
After much feminist intervention,
women's poetry, stories and music,
pictures of Rosie the Riveter on the wall,
Considers,
“What do you want to be when you grow up?”
No hesitation
“A shopping mommy.”
She is and she does.
Beautifully

But what makes me smile?
The day my daughter took her sexist boss to court,
Represented herself
(he had an attorney),
She won, changing company policies,
And the mind and heart of even his attorney.

What makes me smile?
My son’s poetry written to his family and wife.

What makes me smile?
My family . . . slobber and all.

Pappje



Cuddling boyhood memories
extracting every smell, every touch
from the craving in his belly . . .

Celebes

soft spongy soil under bare feet
thick jungle air
sweet sticky rice 
eaten with fingers
on banana leaf plates

his heart

                                                                   washed up on the wrong shore

                                  

                                                           misplaced




his tears 


                                        fall                  foreign






anke hodenpijl
October 15, 2012

November 2012



choose a voting view
democrat, republican
or independent


anke hodenpijl
October 15, 2012

Malarky






election malarky, political
stuff, no one can agree
puts an ache in my belly
their drivel makes me dizzy




anke hodenpijl

October 13, 2012

Sunday, October 14, 2012

reflections


Baby eyes,
chaste
like an unblemished dawn,

Grandmother eyes
clouded
like a hazy dusk

Ogling into each other’s soul
loose, lush and
drunk with each other

Together the two conspire
to concoct
an elfin kinship

Stirring innocence into wisdom
with a wink,
both see
mischievous rule-breaking
as a way to love each other






anke hodenpijl
October 14, 2012

Skirting Friendship



she does not wear skirts
carefully, meticulously, artist-like
she prepares her face; 
pencil perfect brows
thin and delicate.
mascara flicked on
blush brushed on
lips swathed with red
each hair sprayed into place




she does not wear skirts

without apology
she smiles that seductive smile
her essence leaving a trail
like small whiffs of invitation
as she tosses her shoulder-length hair, 
drawing me in


What is this?
What are these chemical stirrings?


she does not wear skirts.


neither do I





anke hodenpijl
October 14, 2012

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

hoo-hoo






hoo-hoo
hoo-hoo

hoo-hoo’s 
reverberate down the chimney
into the bestir of awakening

my body yawns with stinging spasms
muscles react like hard knots
resisting the untying

the morning dove calls again

hoo-hoo
hoo-hoo

she hoo-hoo’s for me

hoo-hoo
hoo-hoo









anke hodenpijl
October 10,  2012

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Kayak Klatter






Clouds silver a bruised sky.

Electricity flails, far away

One one-thousand
Two one-thousand
Three one-thousand




KRRRAAAACCCCKKKKK!


Rumble

Grumble

Out of the river!
Grabbing at boulders,
Scurrying like squirrels to their underground dens.


One one-thousand
Two one-thousand



KRRRAAAACCCCKKKKK!

The canyon vibrates
growling
Rrrrroiling

Slippery kayaks
Fight to return to the aggitated waters below

One one-thousand


KRRRAAAACCCCKKKKK!

Heavy clouds splootch heavy drops
Thump         
                         Thump
                                                        Thumpety-thump, thump, thump.
Globules turn to watery chatter 

Sssshhhhh, sssshhhhh, sssshhhhh
Shushing the brawling river

Chatter turns to patter
Pit-pat, pit-pat, pit-pat

White sunlight spills out from behind.

Dusty rocks, now shiny,

The smell of pine
Refreshes the forest

I slide down to
new rushes of
untried spinning waters
groaning potholes
and bubbling washboards


eddy-in
paddle placed

the swollen waters
ingurgitate


I’m upside down

sudden silence

water-logged deafness


rocks, river bottom and fish
float by,

or,



is it me floating by?

thee en kookie (#8 posted late)


thee en kookie


Bustling,
morning family noises
nudge me awake.

Me, still in bed.
flashing with fever and
clammy goose bumps 
popping little stings on my skin.

“Ben je ziek?”
her kind soft hand
placed on my head,
then strokes my cheek


at once
his husky, scruffy, dry hand
repeats the parent’s stethoscope.
Diagnosis confirmed for meisje
“This little girl needs to stay home.”

Worry
Weakness 
Who would lose this day’s pay?




“Remember the Vicks!”
camphor smelly jelly
rubbed gently on my chest, throat and forehead
next the warm wet wash cloth
swathed around my neck
fastened with the baby-diaper pin

The house empties.

soothing soundlessness so rare in our household

Gently, she comes balancing
thee en kookie;

always in the fine porcelain cup and saucer,
painted with gold leaf and rose colored flowers,
weak tea laced with milk, 
lots of sugar 
and a Bufferin.



Dipping the cookie in the elixir
she touches my lips with the limp sweetness,
pudding-like it slips down my swollen throat.

Ladling with the itsy-bitsy special spoon,
She carefully offers the tea to my lips . . .

I know she’ll stay until each drop is gone


slowly, me


sipping,


suckling


thee en kookie








anke hodenpijl
october  9, 2012

Saturday, October 6, 2012

mami




mami



Is that you ghosting the figments
of my whispering whims?
I have a hankering to hear your voice
catechize me in the ways to be 

I am mother’s mud


You the potter,
Niggling and fiddling
willing opportunity, happiness and success
into me
You shaped, crafted, twisted and pulled
You saw everything you wanted

I became something else
I disappointed you

I blush with muddled regret
Even now, ashes spread
I still feel you trifling, taunting and poking
around my life 

I am grateful for your talcum scented spirit
as you waft your way through my own pottering

You the potter,
I the pot

Your greatest creation?           not the pot

rather



THE POTTER



everything I always wanted










anke hodenpijl
October 6, 2012

Friday, October 5, 2012

Flaky Freedom



Flaky Freedom


The far fetched free spirit
Far from being understood
Far from being fetched.
The endless wagging tale
Unpredictable
Fleshy
Flashy
A bohemian blessing

I breathe in gypsy breath
Inhaling the rhapsodical rush

Sharing the swollen songs
Of flowers, sunsets and old forest trees

I boogie barefoot
Strutting with attitude
Spinning stories
As I move to the music
Whirling my bragging shabby skirts

Like those wandering grandmother spirits,
Those soul sharers

With unsettling nomadic wisdom . . .




Dessert before dinner please!
Make it flaky
Make it free





Anke Hodenpijl
October 5, 2012     

Thursday, October 4, 2012

tomorrow is another day



tomorrow is another day




sky of the morning
pale with blue
still infantile


clouds
knuckled with red
wrinkled with pink
finger across
a juvenile pallette


soon the fizzle


a Judas light
takes away



like lessons learned too late

Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Graying Connections

febrile fibers of the widow's web
knit by the abandoned hand
left in the care of faceless strangers
delirious to attach
to anyone
to anything

fixed in the fevered familiar
flashbacks of long ago
she

fabricates
a


celibate
connection




Tuesday, October 2, 2012

Trail Head



Trail Head

Sharp pricks of rain
smack my face
like spit spewing from an angry sky

Niplets thump 
their message 
on long, wide leaves
urging a spongy sunset 
to massage
the mist rising 
from a frond-filled forest floor.

Sloppy apathetic mud 
sucks
at my boots

squashy, squishy
quaggy steps

search
for
the destination

of 
my
            procrastination            .



Monday, October 1, 2012

Beginning

My future lurks behind me
shady shadows
chasing me into unknown places
begging for a beginning

I rest in between
memories and plans
inhaling and exhaling
as my heart

s k i p s

a

             beat


Sunday, September 9, 2012

Why did I have to wait for retirement to reconnect with my inner poet?
I talked myself out of it you know.
Poetry . . . an art without financial gain.
Poetry . . . an art not valued by society.
Poetry . . . so much hard work, so few pages filled.
Poetry . . . afraid of their laughter.
Poetry . . . unstructured, nonsensical.